Posted by matti on Aug 22, '10 4:04 PM for everyone
As I have been working more with vocabulary and reading as part of the software business I am involved with, I have been seeing how all past and previous conceptions about 'careers' and 'professionals' that I have had, have been inaccurate.
Primarily the way I have experienced myself in the past toward education, careers, and 'educated professionals', has been that of inferiority. Where I saw and experienced myself as 'less than' and 'less capable' than 'educated professionals' whom I experienced as 'authoritative' and 'superior in capability' to me.
The primary reason I have had this inferiority is because as I progressed through middle school and high school, I gradually began to enjoy school less and less, and began to apply myself within school less and less. I defined myself as a 'creative' person as 'someone who is not academic' --- and I defined everything 'school related' as 'academic' and therefore 'not who I am'. I did not like studying things or reading about anything that I saw as 'academic' -- I was rather much more concerned with entertaining myself and 'being creative'. My reluctance to apply myself within studying or developing the more 'normal' careers skills, was because I have always been 'naturally' adept at the more 'instant gratification' things like drawing and playing instruments. From a very young age I was encouraged in my creativity by my parents, my dad being an artist himself, and never had the influence of someone more 'academic' around me. Thus, all my interests and preferences developed in alignment with the definition of myself as being 'a creative person' and not an 'academic person'. I thus experienced dislike, boredom, frustration, impatience with most subjects that are considered 'academic' -- primarily math, science, most history and social studies, and anything that involved disciplined application of 'proper form'.
My dislike of doing things in a disciplined way according to the prescribed 'proper form' eventually resulted in me dropping out of high school in my senior year, because I simply experienced it as 'what's the point', and severely disliked being in school.
I later got my GED and took the SAT in order to apply to art school -- which I dropped out of after the first or second quarter after discovering that art school was not just about making art, but was about following the 'proper form' in order to get a degree to then get a job and make money.
Back then, from my perspective that was 'bullshit' and I wanted to live my life in a way that was 'more free'.
I then basically hung around in my home town for a few years, not doing anything too specific, working an easy job and eventually spending more time developing art. I began to develop art more, due in large part to financial motivation.
However, there came the point when I encountered desteni and began studying the material extensively. I joined the forum in 2008 and have been applying myself with disciplined writing, self honesty and self forgiveness for almost 3 years.
I am now currently living with 2 other desteni participants, Katie and Cameron, and we are working together getting a business going and getting ourselves effective at being able to sell a product. Alongside this I also plan to enroll in college and commence studying.
I am doing this because within my time applying myself with self honesty and self forgiveness, I have come to see that my capabilities far exceed what I had believed of myself in the past. My past perceptions of myself as being 'less capable' of for instance studying or learning how to do business, were entirely based on my 'negative emotional experiences' towards studying and 'academics' which I had developed over the years through having defined myself more and more within an idea of 'creativity' rather than 'academics' and studying, and wherein my decisions about what to do with my life were previously directed by my accepted limitations and self definitions, and beliefs and ideas about myself.
Now, things are quite different. Because what I have discovered is that 'who I was' as the person I experienced myself as within my school years and the time after I dropped out of high school -- was never really who I am. That was merely me as defined by the extensive ideas I had about myself as a result of my specific upbringing and the specific encouragement I had received from my parents, which conflicted with the structure of the school system. My accepted limitations with regards to studying, getting an education and becoming effective 'in the system' have simply been the result of me allowing myself to be subject to reactions / emotions / resistances that come up when faced with studying, which have been based in my definitions and ideas and beliefs about myself that I am 'not academic', and that I am 'not capable' of studying, and that I am 'less than' those in this world who have gotten a higher education and have become 'professionals'.
What I now see is the simplicity of how the human being actually learns.
With my application of self honesty and self forgiveness and breathing in every moment, I have been able to remove enough of the layers of self definitions, self ideas, self beliefs and emotional experiences to be able to see how simple the process of learning actually is.
Just as my 'mental experience' of myself as thoughts, feelings, emotions, reactions, ideas, beliefs, opinions, desires, fears, etc actually just consists of information as words with definitions, structured according to my acceptances and allowances as the words I am 'Living as myself', this entire world system as all the 'careers' and 'professions' and 'tasks' and 'functions' carried out by human beings, simply consists of information - words.
What I believe I 'can do' or 'not do' according to some idea I have about myself, is completely irrelevant to what I am able to in fact 'do' and 'not do'.
What does it take to become a 'professional'?
For every career there is a college curriculum. This curriculum consists primarily of books. These books contain knowledge / information of how things work, and how to do something. This knowledge and information consists of certain key concepts and ideas and understandings that are required to be transferred to the student, so that the student then knows how to do something.
These key concepts and ideas, are communicated on the pages of books -- and a page in a books consists of many individual words placed together specifically to convey a concept / idea / instruction, etc.
Each individual word has a specific definition.
Obviously if one does not have the vocabulary - meaning, if one has not actually learned all those individual words and their definitions -- one will not be able to read that page of that book, and will not be able to learn those concepts and ideas and instructions being conveyed on the page.
A successful professional is simply someone who has been able to learn all the vocabulary words specific to a particular profession, and has effectively read and understood all the information / instruction conveyed within the curriculum, and is now putting that information into application as a 'career'.
When we hear or see 'professionals' speaking 'professionally' about their field - whether it be medicine, law, politics, science, engineering --- we tend to see them / perceive them as being 'smart' - and being 'more smart than me' because they are speaking fluently about something that 'I don't understand'.
But their ability to speak about their specific field, is not a result of them being 'superior' or 'smart' as apparently some magic ability. No.
They simply 'know their stuff' -- they know the material they are speaking about. They have all the vocabulary words with definitions and they have, through reading, achieved successful transfer of information from books into their mind, and are now able to speak about their field.
See, it is not magic.
What I have noticed also with regards to speaking about a specific topic to other people in the area of business I am currently involved in -- is that all anxiety, fear, apprehension, nervousness that I have experienced towards being in a situation where I must convey something effectively to someone -- has been a result of me simply not having clearly understood and integrated the words / definitions / information with regards to a specific point. What I thus do, is I look at the points where anxiety / uncertainty / apprehension comes up, and I identify what do I not actually clearly understand with regards to what I am speaking about - and then I go and investigate those points in writing, and clarify for myself what that point means, how it works, what is the nature of its relationship to the other points it is relevant to -- and when I am clear that I now understand that point, I then clarify that any anxiety or fear that comes up again with regards to speaking about that point, is not real and that I am simply making the point into something it is not, through thinking about it.
Studying a specific field is not in itself a complicated 'thing' -- because each career field is simply a body of information -- and each career field is in relationship to other career fields as other bodies of information, which all together collectively form the 'system' -- it is all simply information - and all that information is simply words.
Thus, going back to the point I was initially speaking about which was how I had placed myself as 'less than' and 'inferior' to 'professionals' -- I have seen that such a placement of myself through my mind is completely ridiculous, and is based on the idea that people who are 'professionals' are 'more than me' - when in fact all they are is simply someone who has a specifically developed vocabulary and has had a specific college curriculum transferred to them through reading books.
Posted by matti on Aug 17, '10 7:37 PM for everyone
Regarding the reactions of outrage people tend to have towards the Equal Conscripted Labor point within the Equal Money System.
When something that is needed by everyone is not available to everyone equally - it is then coveted and has value placed in it.
Thus if one person is able to maintain control over what others need -- they then have have a 'status' of 'power' over the others and are able to exploit and capitalize on the needs of others, to make more profit for themselves and maintain control over others.
This is how the current system works -- where YOU are subject to the rules of a system of government / corporations that are capitalizing on your basic needs, and you simply have accepted the system that is used to capitalize on your needs, because you have been born into it and educated to accept it and not question it.
And you have been programmed by the media and consumerism to believe that you are 'free' despite your obvious enslavement to an abusive system that exploits the survival needs of human beings.
But you do not simply work for money at the level of necessity and practicality -- you have been programmed to experience great desire for money because you have been programmed with all sorts of desires for various experiences, luxuries and advantages, things and lifestyles which are attainable only through attaining money - with more money you then you have 'more life' and 'more freedoms' for yourself and thus your self interest as all your various desires, hopes and dreams that are attainable through attaining money, has become the motivation for your labor that you put into the system.
Thus the fact that you have to labor your entire life within an obviously abusive system simply to maintain your basic survival -- you justify through your ability to gratify your programmed desires, hopes and dreams, through attaining enough money to live out your desires, hopes and dreams within the current consumerist society - - where you then perceive that you are 'living your own free life' - when in fact without money you have nothing.
Pretty fucked up that one would have a reaction of outrage to the proposal of a Conscripted Labor period within an Equality System based in actual support of humanity that considers what is best for all - a system that ends your enslavement to the 'desire for money' which is actually based in fear of not surviving, and where your desires, hopes and dreams have been programmed into you by your parents, teachers, religions and by the media.
Equal Labor as part of an Equal Money system is Common Sense - I mean, there is no support unless we make sure the support happens. But we do it for ourselves as Humanity as Life so that we can ALL have what we ALL need, instead of being enslaved to a system that does not care about life.
I mean, you do your laundry because you like clean clothes right? Are you outraged that you have to put in the labor to do your laundry? Are you outraged that you have to move your legs if you want to walk from point A to point B? No, it is simply the fact of how this reality operates at a basic level -- if we do not participate then nothing happens.
Thus, with Conscripted Labor we take Responsibility as Humanity to put in labor for a short part of our lives within an Equality System that is best for ALL of us, because we like a system that supports everyone to live - rather than the current system that enslaves people to work their entire life merely to maintain their survival, and which allows abuse, greed, starvation, poverty, survival-motivated crime and violence, dishonesty, war, destruction of the environment and all kinds of UNACCEPTABLE bullshit.
The Equal Conscripted Labor system is not 'forced labor under the hand of some tyrant' -- it is simply the principle of organized participation of Human Beings to take on the necessary tasks of maintaining a system that Equally benefits and supports All - and which does not allow some to abuse the labor of others for personal benefit in self interest.
Posted by matti on Aug 14, '10 4:05 AM for everyone
Equal Money System
In principle it is to structure the system in a way where all Life As Value is equally and fairly accounted for in terms of everyone having equal and fair access to the necessary components of effective living on earth.
The common sense and sustainability of such a system is that value can never fluctuate or be debated and is not subject to opinion or knowledge - it is Self Evident as Life, and the 'components' of the system are solely there to support Life as Value.
For instance, food in itself will not have 'more' or 'less' value according to geographical location, population density or less / more fertile areas --- because Life is the Value and thus food is made available to Life.
Life is the 'deciding' Principle. The Equal Money System is simply to structure and facilitate the support that Life requires.Within this, food will need to be produced, and the system / infrastructure will need to be maintained -- since the system supports Value as Life within what is Best for All, a period of Equal Labor conscription is necessary, to maintain the system.
This is not 'serving the state' as in communism - but nor does it allow corruption and exploitation and free-reign to abuse as in capitalism -- the Equal Money System is where Humanity and the System function in Unison according to what is actually best for All.
Posted by matti on Aug 12, '10 5:00 PM for everyone
This simply shows the dysfunctional nature of the current economic system within which one must attain money to purchase 'insurance of survival', and where this 'insurance' is only possible if someone else is able to make a profit off the risk you are insuring yourself against
Posted by matti on Aug 12, '10 4:21 PM for everyone
The base knowledge that current politics / philosophy / culture comes from is rooted in inequality and division which is in fact make-believe, only existing in the mind as thoughts - the fuckup is that this knowledge is valued above the actual physical Life that is Here which is Equal.
The current accepted way we live is directed by knowledge that those who went before us taught to us, passed on to us.
Obviously, being taught with the same base knowledge as those who went before us, we develop the same base patterns and habits as those who went before us -- and the basis of these patterns is obviously to ensure our survival within the current money system -- thus our behavior / ways of thinking and considering will always reflect the logic of how to survive in the money system at a personal level --- this is why many people react to the proposal of Equal Money for All, because it requires one to make a consideration outside of ones usual 'personal self preservation and survival patterns and goals'
Posted by matti on Aug 8, '10 3:27 PM for everyone
"Also I must inquire, would an equal money society allow a free market similar to what we have in north america today? And would all labor pay the same regardless of training or physical demand?" -CountHektor Common sense is that labor should be a point of constructive participation in ones world in taking on an actual real purpose for oneself - not to earn 'profit' to try and achieve 'more security' and be 'more well off financially' - that merely indicates the extent to which people are not currently able to live for the sake of the betterment of actual life, but 'must labor' only to 'stay secure' through making money for survival.
An equal money system will change this, and allow us to learn, labor and participate in our world free from the anxiety and urgency of 'needing to make money'. -Matti Freeman
Posted by matti on Aug 6, '10 4:15 AM for everyone
Peter Hutton Hi Andrea, thanks for the video, but the problem in the world isn't money and how it is distributed, that's a biproduct of an underlying foundation and premise most humans share. The way out is consciousness, awareness, and realizing everyo...ne is creating their own reality. The guy talking seems very passionate and I don't doubt his good intentions, but he is misguided all the same, and what I picked up on was a sense of powerlessness, his own and his projection onto others of their powerlessness. Are people powerless to change their lives? Possibly. But equally possible is they do have the power to change their life, they just don't know it or don't want to know it. I care about the poor. But I'd rather show them how to fish then give them fish if you know what i mean.
Maya Harel Peter, The solution that you suggested isn't standing through the test of time. Everyone is responsible for our reality Equally as one and this is why this physical reality exists as it does today where half of this world live in less the 2...$ a day, where children starve to death every few minutes and a women get raped every 3 second. We are responsible for it as well as all as equal.
What exists is the Law of Balance which means that when you create the good in your world, the bad must get balance somewhere! and it does. just open your eyes
Equal Money System is a temporary solution to the main goal - all Equal and One as Self realization, Here in this physical Reality. To do that, All people must have the basic right as life - Food, Shelter, Education. When those will be establish - people would have 'Time' to focus on them self, and realize themselves with Self Forgiveness, Self Honesty, Self corrective application and common sense.
The current problem in this world is Money - no matter how you'll look at it.Money became our 'God'. Equal money system will change the value of Money to Value of LIFE.
Now, i suggest you to hear unconditionally other people instead of project onto them your own interpretation of your Mind. Turn it back to self and check for yourself who is really "powerless"
Half of this world don't have the power to change their life. they need money to do that - the need food to support their physical body. it's not that they don't know how - they just can't.
Now, when saying you care for the poor - OMG. are you really caring for the poor? becuase within your words, it doesn't seem that way - all you care about is YOU, from the starting point of self interest, not considering all as one as equal. not living as the principle of equality but as personality.
We are all living in this ONE physical reality, and we are all Responsibile for everything that exists. Stop blinding your eyes and realize that as long as people are suffering, we all as one are suffering. Until we stop.
So unless you have any other practical solution that will be effectively changing this world, i suggest to learn more about Equal money system, and check out Desteni Massage where you'll see for yourself the extant of what does it means Equal responsibility.
Matti Freeman yea, I know what you mean - you'd rather bring a child into a world where they have to earn the ability to even sustain themselves at a basic level through spending years proving to the system that they are valuable enough to the system to ...not be spit out
in an equal money system - what is proposed is a common sense system of support for life where from birth - you have value and never lose that value and thus are never SPIT OUT by the system because you are life and you have value.
Where you are given the tools to develop into a functionally effective participant on earth who can focus on developing and flourishing in expression and practical living to support your fellow man and to do your part to support the equality system that supports you so you can live the rest of your life in exploration and enjoyment of who you are as life instead of being trapped in a lifelong work schedule merely staying occupied with mental fantasy lands in lifestyles that are bought within consumerism and based on self definitions you have developed through being taught how to exist as a consumer from birth by parents / teachers / media / religion as in the current system -- where you then use sentiment and feelings to justify allowing starvation and poverty, deluded into believing that millions of starving people with no money and no access to any support structure simply has the magical ability to effectively support themselves -- so that you can feel okay going about your life of self interest until death
you've been misguided by the pictures / sentiments / feelings of religion and spirituality to support consumerism, separation and inequality through occupying yourself in your mind as an alternate self-interested 'reality' shaped by beliefs and opinions, where you value your mental / feeling / emotional sentiment and philosophy rather than actually valuing all life as principle and supporting that value to be honored in all ways at all levels as actual care
I suggest, do extensive research on all videos / articles produced thus far on the Equal Money system and consider that the support of life will not happen if the system does not function according to principle - principle that always equate what is best for all and never gives priority to opinion / belief / sentiment as in the current system
Posted by matti on Jul 31, '10 2:41 AM for everyone
@MattiFreeman1 "I think that we have an obligation to prevent people from starving to death, and I realise that we are not globally meeting that challenge. We do need to work on the current system...BUT the system that you are proposing is not going to work because it flies in the face of natural reality, and it stifles incentive....and that in turn stifles productivity. I'll be responding by video next." -istheretruth
in our current money system, the incentive people have to work is a product of the fact that we must compete and struggle to 'earn our keep' and where the goal is to 'achieve' security, success and comfort, and where the reward for working extra hard is that you can afford luxuries reserved only for those who can earn enough money
in an equality system where competition for survival is removed, and there is never the fear of poverty and lack -- human behavior will change. the past 'incentive' will no longer be relevant -- many things will cease to exist, such as luxury hotels and other things that previously relied on the labor of the less fortunate to maintain and upkeep - where the less fortunate served the more fortunate -- such enslavement will no longer exist in an equality system where human labor cannot be exploited to benefit those with all the money
instead, the system is maintained through equal conscripted labor for a relatively short period of ones life - leaving the rest of your life for self expression -- obviously within this, you could not sustain a personality / ego that is based on your money because a status / class system based on money would no longer exist, and you would have learn to live as an actual human being instead of an ego / status
and obviously, those that genuinely care and want to help their fellow man, will be able to carry out a 'profession', such as doctors
consumerism will no longer exist, as it is based only on profit making, and not supporting life
in an equality system many things will change dramatically, and many things will cease to exist. Most of what we see around us in this world is based only on making profit in consumerism and does not serve a practical purpose in terms of supporting human beings to live effectively
many points to be considered and researched in terms of the actual, practical, physical, real implications of change to a system that is in fact best for all - not just human beings, but for animals and nature as well - which currently are extensively abused and exploited as a function of the money system
When the principle of what is best for all in equality is applied within investigating all the various structures and systems in place in this world, it can be seen how things will change -- and it can be seen that change is actually possible
but it requires actual, real effort, actual real self-education and investigation - it requires us to take responsibility to figure out how we can make it happen -- because once the principle is seen, that is our responsibility.
Real change in this world will take great effort and real action.
we can easily see that when most people say 'change' -- it is just sentiment and has not actually been considered -- because our personality has been created according to the current system -- and thus to really consider change implies the end of our current personality.
it is easy to see that all talk of change within religion, spirituality, most political movements, etc -- is just sentiment, just personality, just an appearance -- and thus has never made any difference.
at desteni we are interested in real, actual, physical change that actually will happen -- and we will make it happen because for us, who stand as principle, change is not a personality, not a feeling, not a fantasy, not a belief -- it is something that we realize only happens through 1+1=2 physical, actual actions taken
Posted by matti on Jul 26, '10 10:06 PM for everyone
Before survival becomes part of the equation, children get along and there is equality.
when children reach the age where they must start to learn to 'survive' socially and social anxieties / fears develop - gangs as 'social groups' start to form and continues for the rest of their lives in the money system. The current money system consists of social classes and competition in the work place with the goal of making more money to achieve a higher social class.
Thus in the current system, sociology is not about human beings expressing themselves with each other in equality as with very young children --- it is about competition and division within social classes which are determined by how much money you have.
an equal money system that removes the class system and competition for survival, essentially equalizes the social playing field from the perspective of restoring the opportunity for self expression that was present when we were very young.
in an equal money system -- there is no longer any purpose for the 'personalities' that have developed as part of the class / social system based on how much money you have.
The removal of such a 'class / social' structure based on how much money one has, will result in a change in the way we as human beings socialize and express ourselves.
in the environment /ecosystem there is competition and 'survival of the fittest', no?
by the way, frogs in the amazon may have more supply of food than frogs in the meadow. think about that. -FatalWeap0n
@FatalWeap0n and therefore - people should starve?
the point to see here is - we are capable of structuring a world system in a way that supports everyone to live and removes unnecessary struggle and suffering. competition for survival is not necessary among human beings. it is simply a function of the current value system. We can see what we are doing. We can see the consequence of a system based in competition.
when everyone has what they need - you remove competition for survival
1+1=2
-MattiFreeman1
@FatalWeap0n think about his: all your thoughts are based in what you've been taught by others from birth - other who were also born into the current system and education to accept it
I suggest - stop thinking and look directly at what is going on -MattiFreeman1
@FatalWeap0n competition exists because 'life' has been defined in separation of life itself -- life has been defined as an 'experience that is only possible with money' - where therefore money has value instead of life itself being valued, and people compete for 'more money' to have 'more life'
you are life - I am life - human beings are life -- when the system values life equally and supports all life -- money is no longer used in competition to 'achieve' an 'idea' of life -MattiFreeman1
symbiosis is the key - equal support .- exactly Nature as a system is perfection and we should actually learn from them even if they eat each other they respect these basic periods of doing it with its respective terms - they are actually working at a collective/group level - individualism has clearly fucked-up the basic establishment of this basic point. Great video Matti, thanks -MarlenLife
i'm in! where is everybody? come on people! let's get real and take responsibility for what we are creating or accepting in this reality - our world! -BellaBargilly
Give all human fishes water!!!!! Equal money for all! -ViktorHansEmanuel
MartijndeGraaf1001 16 hours ago when we have money or when we have a religion we cling to, it is the same: we aren't able to hear common sense and we aren't motivated to self intimacy to face ourselves to realize what we have become and exist as. In the back of our minds we know that our situation needs to be solved. Who will stand up to make a difference? Nothing will change for the better if we don't do it ourselves. -MartijndeGraaf1001
sorry bud your collectivist system haqs always been a siily dream that ends in totalitarian dictatorship... marxism is a joke a fantasy that requires more faith than the bible .... and that is what you are advocating... marxist have starved more of their own that all the famives in history combined -SACRAMANIACSmc
MarlenLife @SACRAMANIACSmc you are part of the group called 'humanity' the why that group is fucked is because of some 'believing' that 'collectivism=marxism' and thus define it according to one failed attempt to live as a collective without having Equality as base-foundation of the system or 'what is best for all' as mediocrity reigned over 'communism' - Best is to get a hold of what 'Best for All' implies as Equality - You fear dictatorships? You're already in 1, open your eyes. -MarlenLife
@SACRAMANIACSmc This response is a product of political polarity... Bash one polarity to force you to accept the other Marxism Failed so you accept and Support Capitalism/Consumerism, This is not freedom, limiting yourself between two choices that don't actually represent you or anyone else in this world. You cannot argue with Equality, since we are all here equally on this Earth. This is what everyone deserves, so the billions in starvation will be billions of votes for World Equality. Simple. -katieconklin
So what's fascinating when you look at the 'marriage vows' taken by people 'married' by a priest, is that when you look at a couple of points within these 'marriage vows' you can see that Religion supports, directly: inequality to exist in this world. And especially in the current Money System, the current Economic System. Cause in the 'marriage vows', you have 'for richer or for poorer', 'for better or for worse', 'till death do us part' - so, and then you're 'vowing', you're taking..you're swearing a vow 'before god' that, till death do you part, till you die, you will accept the polarity of 'rich and poor', 'better and worse' - and these are vows that you take 'before god', which shows that if these vows are apparently 'ordained by god', then we can see that 'god' is directly supporting the polarity of 'rich and poor', 'better or worse' - supporting inequality to exist - in the Money System, in the world and thus directly Responsible for poverty and starvation. And then also, what's pretty fascinating is that, in the 'marriage vows' is says 'till death, do you part', and when you look at 'do you part' it's like - 'till death, Do Your Part'. So, you're vowing that you will accept 'rich and poor', 'better off and worse off', so you're accepting the polarity of rich and poor in the current monetary system which means that you support poverty - and also then, the wealthy elite with most of the money - you're supporting that polarity to exist, and you're accepting and taking a vow that 'I will do my part' within the system, within the current system accepting those polarities, until 'Death does me part' - until Death 'parts me' from the System, and 'parts me' from my 'Partner' in the System which is my husband or wife who I'm working together with to, um, 'survive in the system till death do me part'. And then what's also fascinating about that is, um - the belief that then I'm going to be reu…I'm going to…be 'reunited' with my husband or my wife or whoever after death in 'heaven' -- but the 'marriage vows' themselves say 'Till Death - Do You Part', which is showing that at Death, you as partners, as marriage-partners are going to be Parted - it doesn't say 'till death where you will then be reunited' it says, 'till death do you part'.
Part 2
So it's fascinating then when you look at an Equal Money System, an Equality System which will remove this polarity of 'rich and poor' and 'for better or for worse', because it gives everyone Equal Life from Birth to Death, and, your life is no longer about having to 'achieve' a better 'balance', 'monetary balance' on your 'balance sheet' so that you can survive and be 'better off', and then if you…because then your whole life is about 'holding your balance' and 'maintaining your balance' and trying to get a 'better balance' so you can be 'better off', in fear of being…in fear of losing your current balance and having a 'worse off' 'balance-sheet', which means that you.. and, within your life will then be 'worse off'. An Equality System will remove this polarity, give everyone Equal Life from Birth to Death and when you look at then the effect this will have on the current 'marriage vows' that people take - these apparently 'holy', 'sacred' 'marriage vows' will, will become irrelevant because they are about, cause they're based in the polarity of the current Money System - 'richer or poorer', 'better or worse', till death. So the 'marriage vows' I guess will have to be changed, won't they, to reflect Equality - so it will no longer be about 'richer or'…'for richer or for poorer', or 'for better or for worse till death' - it'll be about, um…we are both Equal in Life, and Equal in everything, and Equal in…as Partners 'till death do us part', so the 'marriage vows' will have to change which is fascinating.
Part 3 - gay marriage
So also then when you look at this whole 'gay marriage' point, um, it's this whole point of 'equal civil rights' and, giving everyone the equal right to 'marry'. But, when we look at then these points within the actual 'marriage vows' that are accepting inequality to exist in the world, within the current economic system, of 'rich and poor', 'better and worse' 'till death do us part', um - that shows that Equality is not actually being understood here and that 'Equality' from the starting point of wanting 'gay-marriage-as-equality', 'equal marriage rights', is an 'equality' based in self-interest because it's just two people who happen to be gay, who are wanting the same 'rights' to 'do their part' in the system as the 'non gay' people - but really they're..so…they're wanting their 'right' to do the same…to…. 'play the same part' that the 'non gay' people are playing in the system but the system itself is based in inequality. So, gay marriage isn't about Equality it's really only about..and 'being gay' isn't about Equality, it's about…well 'I happen to have a different sexual orientation and I wanna be able to participate in this system of inequality the same…uh, with the same access to 'getting job' and being able to partner with someone and be able to utilize all the same kind of functionalities that will allow us to manage our finances and our lives 'till death do us part' -- but, again in that there's no actual Equality being presented, for instance - in terms of considering what's best for All Equally in this World, it's really only about 'I wanna get married', and 'I'm gay' and currently the system doesn't 'allow me to get married', and I 'love' my partner and we wanna get married so we can be like 'everyone else' from the perspective of being able to do 'our part till death do us part'. So gay marriage really, doesn't really have much to do with Equality - Equality would, like an Equality system, again, would remove the whole 'polarity game' of 'richer / poorer' 'better / worse' 'till death do us part', because it would be about Equal Life, Equal Money from Birth to Death - Till Death do us Part. So, we can see - what can we see when we look at that, we can see that Equality in terms of like what Equality actually implies, isn't understood within the way Equality is currently being 'presented' and spoken about and 'championed' in the system, because the current idea of Equality isn't equating Everyone, it's not equating All Life, what's Best for All Life as Equals, because that is Equality. You can't have a 'lesser Equality' because then that's Inequality, isn't it. So gay marriage isn't really about Equality in terms of what the actual Implication of Equality is, which is what is best for…what is it that's Best for for All Here Equally, because if you're just wanting to get married because you're gay so that you can just have 'your life' like everyone else 'till death do you part' - you're accepting the current system of inequality - economic system, money system of inequality - which means that you accept and support inequality, so it's really time to start evaluating how we've defined 'Equality', so that we can look at it from the perspective of - how can we actually make this world a place where Everyone's Equal Human Rights are being Honored and met at all times from Birth till Death.
Posted by matti on Jul 17, '10 1:09 PM for everyone
Equality always stops polarity - and when you stop the polarity you stop the need to find 'balance' because you restore Equal-Librium. Hence, the Equal-Life foundation.
The Equal Life Foundation presents An Equality System with Equal Money for All which will stop rich and poor and also the 'middle' class and will overrule spirituality's ideas about 'balance' which have been used to perpetuate polarity where some have a poor balance-sheet and others have a rich balance-sheet and some have a moderate balance-sheet -- where everyone is 'holding their balance' and trying to attain an even 'better balance'
With Equality, the system will never be 'imbalanced', and the purpose of our lives will no longer have to be about struggling to attain a position of monetary security where we can then say 'I'm balanced now because I have enough money in my balance' -- because support will be equal from birth to death
Part 1 Okay, so I am now exposing the fascinating deception of Eckhart Tolle. Let's just start with his name, when you look at the name 'Toll-E' which is his last name - it's 'Toll', the word 'toll', and then 'E', the letter 'E', and, when you look at this it's fascinating what you see because when you look at what Eckhart Tolle represents in the system, in consumerism - he is a product that is bought and sold, he is a commodity - and the value that Eckhart Tolle as a product has is that he represents the 'pathway' to, or the 'way' to 'enlightenment' and an experience of 'bliss' - an energetic experience, 'higher consciousness', 'enlightenment', and - attained through applying the 'Power of Now'. And obviously if you apply the Power of Now and then experience 'enlightenment' and attain 'bliss' then you've 'Won' the 'journey' to 'enlightenment' haven't you? Fascinating. So, we have Eckhart Tolle who, again, going back to his name 'Toll-E' so, you have all the consumers that are obviously wanting to make their lives easier and experience a nice experience of 'bliss', and become 'enlightened' - so they purchase his books and they pay money to go see him speak - so they pay the 'Toll', so that they can hopefully have the 'Energetic' experience of 'Enlightenment' which is the 'E' in 'Toll-E' - and, so they can apply the 'Power of Now', and hopefully get to a point where then they've 'Won' the 'spirituality game' and achieved the ultimate blissful experience. So within this it's fascinating because we can see that Eckhart Tolle actually is actually a 'poster-boy' for Consumerism. He had nothing, he had a miserable childhood, he then eventually had his 'enlightenment experience' and, kind of was a bum for a while and hung around on park benches, and then he wrote his book and his book became a best seller and he became very successful and started earning a lot of money. So, I mean even in that you can see it's not 'enlightenment' that brought Eckhart Tolle abundance - it was only when he produced a product that could be marketed and sold in the consumerist system, that people would pay money for - that then he became successful. He had to attain a position - he didn't actually attain anything 'special' - look at what he actually attained, he attained a position where he, Eckhart Tolle has value as a Product, as a Marketable Item - as a Commodity. He's selling 'enlightenment' - he's actually selling himself as the 'pathway' to 'enlightenment'. So he's 'paying the Toll' by actually prostituting himself within the system so that he can receive support financially, and he is presenting pretty words and a pretty experience that apparently is attainable by applying the 'Power of Now' whereby you can have a 'winning' experience of 'enlightenment' and 'bliss' - and people pay money for his words, for his books, to hear him speak because they want to feel better and they want to have an experience of 'bliss' and 'enlightenment' -- and that's 'consumerism-in-action'. So Eckhart Tolle is, a perfect example of 'consumerism-in-action', and it's no wonder that when you listen to his video talking about 'the current economy', that when you actually listen to the words he's saying, he has no - nothing of substance to say, he has no actual perspective on anything, he presents no practical solution to any problem - because it's actually the current economic system that made Eckhart Tolle what he is today. So, Eckhart Tolle IS the current Economic System - Eckhart Tolle is Consumerism, Eckhart Tolle is Capitalism -- he is a product that is marketed, and that, which is 'enlightenment and bliss', which capitalizes on people's desire to experience their life 'easier' and experience 'bliss', and find a solution to all their problems and troubles. So, another fascinating point to look at within this is that he's also like a 'self help guru' to celebrities like Meg Ryan and Oprah Winfrey, and other people, and obviously he's receiving money to apparently 'assist' them on their 'pathway to enlightenment' - but what's interesting is that he's not assisting people who are in poverty or starving children to apparently apply the 'Power of Now' to improve their condition - why? Because they don't have money to pay him with. The celebrities have money that they can pay him with, so obviously he is their 'self help guru'.
Part 2 And people use this, they use Eckhart Tolle as an excuse where they justify the poverty and the struggle and the crime and the starvation that's a result of the current economic system of unfairness and inequality and corruption and greed and self-interest and exploitation and enslavement by saying 'oh well they just need to raise their consciousness' and, you know, apply the 'Power of Now' properly, and then their lives will change for the better - but if you look at that, unless they can become a marketable, valuable product in the system that consumers will want to purchase, their lives won't get better and they'll have to then be the slaves. When you look at it there's two points within the system there's the - for instance Eckhart Tolle represents someone who himself became an extremely valuable commodity - so he can sell himself for a lot of money - he 'won' because he's like, representing the 'ultimate'…'energetic experience' that one can get, the 'ultimate' 'retail therapy' experience - whereas most people simply get an education so that they can attain some level of value to the system where they can at least be a laborer and a worker, and have a job to get by in the system and consume products - whereas Eckhart Tolle represents the….like, 'topmost step' in the system, he…where, again it's the 'Power of Now' is the 'Power of Won', where 'Won' is that you've 'Won' the system, you've achieved the highest value, and obviously when you look at Eckhart Tolle he has the highest value in the system because everyone will pay money for his products because everyone wants 'enlightenment' because that's self-interest - everyone obviously wants to feel…wants themselves to 'feel good', and the 'Power of Now' is all about 'how can I make myself feel better', and thus Eckhart Tolle is extremely popular.
Part 3 Okay so now I'm looking at another fascinating point, which is Eckhart Tolle's first name - Eckhart. So, you have the Heart(hart) of the Ec(Eck) onomy - which is where you pay the Toll with your Toil to buy Energy to keep surviving -- and then, (E)enlightenment is the 'highest energy', the one that you desire the most - and that's what Eckhart Tolle represents, and so you will then keep Toiling and pumping the money into Eckhart Tolle's products, and thus keeping the money pumping and the blood circulating in the Heart(Hart) of the Economic System and obviously the blood of the economic system is Money.
Posted by matti on Jul 13, '10 3:44 PM for everyone
Within my series of Video Responses to Bashar, I am common-sensically evaluating the concepts and beliefs and the 'way of life' that is being promoted within Bashar's channelings. The primary point to be seen, is that within all the various topics covered by Bashar, there is never any Practical Solution presented, with regards to what can be practically done to change this world into a place where everyone is equally supported to live. Rather, the primary message is that the 'purpose' of each is to find their 'highest excitement' and to 'change their beliefs' according to a mental projection of the 'reality' they would 'prefer' to 'experience', and that through constantly 'believing in' the mentally projected 'reality' one would 'prefer' to experience, that one will eventually 'shift' 'into' that 'reality' - as what is presented is that the 'reality' you would 'prefer' to experience, according to your personal desires and wants and wishes, 'already exists' as a 'parallel version' of Earth - so that all one must do is 'focus on the reality you prefer', and 'shift into' that 'parallel version' of Earth.
Attention is being lead away from the physical actuality of what is experienced in this world, and the fact that the physical circumstances we find ourselves in, whether comfortable or impoverished, are determined by whether we have money or not - determined by the nature of the world / money system that functions within inequality where Life is not valued Equally. The message, similar in nature to the 'Law of Attraction', is about 'creating our own reality' - but always what is neglected and ignored in this, is the fact that despite any experience we are creating through our beliefs and thoughts - we are all equally subject to the physical actuality of how the world / money system operates, within which we must 'follow the rules' or not be able to survive – in this, ‘creating our own reality’ is actually dependent on having Money.
What is also ignored is that we are all equally subject to the physical needs and requirements for survival of the Human Physical Body - and that despite any perceived 'shift' into a 'parallel' reality - we never actually 'go anywhere' - we are still here physically the same as before we started participating in 'creating our own reality' as presented by Bashar and other channels.
In my Video Response series, I am presenting the point of Self Honestly evaluating the starting point of participating in the 'way of life' presented by Bashar, taking responsibility to face the physical actuality of how this world operates, and how we each are participating in this world within our individual starting point - to see whether we are taking responsibility for Earth and within our starting point considering what is Best of All on Earth, or merely creating self delusion through the mind as beliefs based on personal desires and wants within the starting point Self Interest. Matti Freeman
Posted by matti on Jul 8, '10 3:21 PM for everyone
Poverty is the Physical Reality of what is created by the current system - it is not actually 'negative' - 'negative' is a judgment.
Poverty is simply the physical fact of what happens when you don't have money within the system we are all agreeing upon and accepting.
In judging and defining poverty as 'the negative', and as 'bad', we then desire to attain the opposite as 'wealth', 'safety', 'security' and 'happiness' through getting MONEY which we have defined as 'the positive', in FEAR of poverty as 'the negative'.
The existence of poverty and starvation and lack actually supports the existence and success of corporations within consumerism, because corporations capitalize on our fear of poverty and lack, by presenting us with lots of stuff to BUY so we feel 'happy' and 'safe' within a bubble purchased with money.
so the whole time we are 'focusing on the positive' - which is all the nice stuff we want to have and experience through attaining money, we are actually supporting the existence of poverty as 'the negative'. This is because we have agreed to value money itself, as a tool with which to attain a nice life for ourselves, so that we don't have to experience poverty and starvation. And the current money system reflects this accepted value -- it does not function to support all Life within actually valuing all Life -- it functions to support our self interest, which is what we have agreed to be 'the way things are'.
If everyone had Equal Money where the value of money is equal to Life --- poverty would end, starvation would end -- but so would our current lifestyle based in consumerism where we are desiring and wanting all the 'positive' because we fear all the 'negative'
an Equal Money system removes the polarity of what we have defined to be 'positive' and 'negative' as 'rich and poor'
Equal Money removes both the 'desire to survive' and the 'fear of not surviving' by giving everyone Equal survival
thus, Equal Money allows all the actual opportunity to LIVE, instead of just getting money to survive and experience the 'positive'
To not support Equal Money, simply reveals that you do not want to give everyone equal survival and life -- and that you value your money, instead of valuing life.
Posted by matti on Jul 8, '10 2:48 PM for everyone
our 'personal interests as our 'lifestyle', each have a relevant industry within the system, which impulses our desires with symbols / pictures / words / sounds in television, movies, music, religion, magazines - providing us with a wide variety of 'choices' of ways to gratify our desires as 'personal interests' - which is consumerism
living only for our 'personal interests' as 'our lifestyle' supports abuse - because the industries exploit and abuse humans, nature and animals to produce the things we then buy to gratify our 'personal interests' -- with many industries competing to make the most profit off our desires - capitalizing on our 'personal interests' for a 'lifestyle'
many people say they support 'change' -- but react to and attack any proposed change that would threaten or change their current 'lifestyle' which is bought through consumerism
when 'who you are' is a personality defined by a lifestyle that must be maintained through continually participating in consumerism - which is self interest -- then EQUALITY is a threat to YOU as your personality and YOU as your lifestyle - and thus, you react and defend the current system which is you defending your personality
in an Equal Money System - the system will no longer exploit humans, animals, or nature to maintain industries which exist solely as consumerism to gratify people's desires to exist in their own personal bubble as a 'lifestyle' they they believe they 'chose'
See - you don't actually choose your lifestyle. The way you participate in consumerism - the lifestyle you end up in, is based on your initial upbringing, education, and environmental influences which shaped the patterns of behavior / beliefs / self definitions / opinions that you then live out as your 'personality' which determines the nature and appearance of the lifestyle you assemble using money which you earned through finding a job that best suits your personality, level of education and behavioral patterns.
Posted by matti on Jul 4, '10 10:47 PM for everyone
Some thoughts and experiences I have been facing in relation to making music, that I used smoking to suppress and not deal with
'I must 'be the best' and 'achieve perfection' I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I must be the best
I forgive myself that I have a accepted and allowed myself to think that I must 'achieve perfection'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must make 'perfect music'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define making music according to an idea of 'perfection'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define making music as a process within which I must 'achieve' something
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must be the best
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must make the best music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my music to be the best
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire an experience of having achieved perfection in relation to making music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect myself to have an experience of being the best when I make a song, and within this
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I make music but do not have an experience of 'being the best', then judge myself as failing myself and become discouraged with myself. And I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my experience of discouragement, to believe that it is actually indicating and telling me that I have failed myself, instead of realizing and seeing that I create the entire emotional experience through my own accepted ideas and definition and beliefs of and about myself in relation to music.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within and as an idea of perfection, and to within this, expect myself to live up to and meet my idea of perfection
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea of perfection
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts and ideas that arise in my mind of me being the 'best' - where I will then judge what I am doing, judge the music I am making through the eyes of these thoughts and ideas, instead of expressing myself here in the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I was young - when my parents would tell me I am good, and that I am talented, and that I am gifted, judge myself to be more than the rest, and create a standard within myself that I must be the best.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define perfection as 'being better than the rest'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need, and desire for my music to be 'better than the rest.'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want, need, and desire for myself to be 'better than the rest.'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as 'gifted'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word 'gifted' as - being bestowed with more value than another, as being better than another, as being more than another
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have been bestowed with more value than another being
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am more than another being - within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my music needs to be more than, and better than the music of others
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I was young - allow myself to believe that what and who and how my parents tell me I am - is in fact what I am, who I am, and how I am - instead of realizing that these are only definitions of myself that I accept and then experience myself as and participate in my world as - and that these definitions are not who I really am, how I really am, what I really am.
If I can't make it perfect, what's the use? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thinking that if I can't make something 'perfect' then 'what's the use'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create this thought through having accepted and allowed myself to have ideas and definitions of myself being required to achieve perfection, according to a projected idea of perfection I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into self defeat when I've experienced that I did not live up to my standard of perfection
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use smoking as an energetic veil to hide within when I would experience the thought of 'what's the use' - instead of from the very beginning when I first had the thought, stand here in and as breath as me - and assist and support myself within self honesty to investigate the thought and stop it with self forgiveness and self corrective application.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought of 'what's the use'? as a statement of futility towards something.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is 'futile' to make music if I cannot experience myself as 'having achieved perfection' each time I make music. lol.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I am making music, expect myself to have a feeling of being satisfied that what I am making is 'perfect'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the experience of futility.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my existence is futile - instead of realizing this is merely a deliberate statement of not allowing myself to live as Life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not allow myself to live as Life
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use smoking as a veil to hide from my experience of futility and 'what's the use'
I must have total freedom at all times to do whatever I want in relation to making music I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea of 'total freedom' defined by having whatever I need available at my fingertips at all times
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define making music as something I am only able to do if my idea of 'total freedom' is being met by my environment
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I 'can't make music' unless I have 'total freedom' as defined by my environment providing me with everything that I could possibly need
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in the thought of 'I must have total freedom at all times to do whatever I want' or else I am not able to make music, and it is not worth making music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my idea of 'total freedom' as a standard that must be met by my environment for me to then be able to make music
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make 'making music' into a 'big deal' for myself
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to simply work fully with is in my hands that is available, and to take the practical steps to making money to then be able to afford other things
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the money system for my experience of limitation and frustration within making music - instead of realizing and acknowledging that I have not in fact been allowing myself to live fully within what is here available - thus seeing that the money system is not to 'blame' and cannot be 'blamed' for my experience - because I am the one that created my idea of freedom that I then placed as the standard which I want and expect my environment as the world to provide for me - instead of realizing the simple facts of how the system exists, and realizing that the system cannot be blamed, and it is not practical to 'expect something' from the system, and thus, to support myself would be to live fully within what I have available, and take the necessary steps required to make money and buy the things that I I require in order to place my expression more effectively
I could do better, I could make better music'. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in the thought of 'I could do better'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have and participate in the thought of 'I could make better music'
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize how unnecessary it is to have thoughts about what I am doing -- because I see that I can always see directly what I am doing, what requires attention, what could be done more effectively, etc -- because I am participating physically. Thus having thoughts about what I am doing physically is stupid and useless. Especially when I allow my thoughts to ratify my actual physical action and expression.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the music I make as 'not good enough', and then become discouraged and 'feel bad' about myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in my thoughts
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my expression as being 'not good enough' - instead of realizing that expression is not about 'good and bad' - it is about me - it is me expressing - simple. And I am here in a reality, in which I use certain objects and tools to facilitate the placement of my expression in this reality. Thought is not necessary within this - my thoughts are not Here as this physical reality that I am working with.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others as inferior musicians
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the superior musician I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define music within and as the polarity of 'superior and inferior' - and to within this, want and desire to be the superior musician
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and realize that the degree of effectiveness and specificity of music people make has nothing to do with the person being 'superior' or 'inferior' -- because the expression that is placed merely reflects who the person is and how they have physically directed themselves within making the music - thus the polarity judgment is irrelevant - the comparison is irrelevant - because self expression is about Self, Me, Here - Who I Am.
Posted by matti on Jul 3, '10 2:16 AM for everyone
what things do I see others being / applying that I compare myself to and judge myself for not doing?
being organized and orderly -- I judge myself for not being as orderly and organized as I see I could be to make certain parts of my life easier to handle and keep track of
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in moments when I see I could be doing something in a more organized way, but I'm not
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in moments when I see I am taking a shortcut in something and not being as organized as I could be, and in that making it more difficult to keep track of something / handle something
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be jealous of others who I see as being 'more organized than me' - instead of assisting and supporting myself by directing myself to organize my world more effectively in areas where I see and experience that I am not being effective in organization
Posted by matti on Jun 30, '10 3:25 AM for everyone
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in remorse I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be experience / accept myself as remorseful towards the world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and experience myself as remorseful towards myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and experience myself as remorseful towards myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and experience and accept myself as regretful towards the world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and experience and accept myself as regretful towards myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret not being willing to assist and support myself within taking self responsibility to write about my experience of myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into remorse instead of standing and assisting and supporting myself with self forgiveness I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to forgive myself unconditionally I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret not allowing myself to forgive myself unconditionally I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about applying self forgiveness, instead of actually assisting and supporting myself as Life as who I really am Here, within actually forgiving myself unconditionally, immediately I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hesitate in applying self forgiveness, and within my hesitation, go into my mind and think about self forgiveness, and think about my experience - instead of breathing, and immediately assisting and supporting myself with and as self forgiveness --------
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to stop experiencing myself as and existing as emotions, thoughts and feelings
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear emotional experiences I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give power to emotions I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in emotions I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that emotions are 'who I really am' - instead of realizing that who I really am is constant, stable, eternal - Here - and that emotions are merely an energetic experience that functions and exists as a system - as a systematic experience with a beginning and end --- emotions are not who I really am - it is not me actually experiencing a real experience of myself - it is a system - it is energy - I am not energy - energy is not 'who I really am' -- who I really am is here as breath - who I really am is silence - who I really am is - nothingness - who I really am is stillness - no movement of emotion, feeling, thought, reaction, energy
Who I really am is silence, stillness, stability, constancy, consistency - as breath, here in every moment. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the lie that I must be, become, experience and accept myself as the mind consciousness system as emotions, thoughts, feelings, reactions as energy
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Dread
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and experience myself as dread I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dread my emotions I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dread the patterns as energy that I experience I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the emotions, feelings, thoughts, reactions as energy that arises within me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if and when an emotion as energy comes up within me - that means I must accept myself as that emotion, and that I am defined by and as that emotion - that the emotion is 'who I really am' - instead of realizing and seeing that the emotion is an energetic experience created through programming as information that I have accepted as 'who I am' and 'how I am'
Till Here No Further.
I do not accept or allow myself to define myself as emotions, feelings, thoughts, reactions, energy.
I am not energy. I am not emotions. I am not feelings. I am not reactions. I am not thoughts.
I am nothingness - I am silence - I am stillness - I am darkness - I am a breath.
